Happy Birtday Dear Ex - Boyfriend.

Feliz cumpleanos ex novio - Happy Birthday Ex- BoyFriend.
su sido un ano y meses desde el estimado de la Division
Translation ; Its been one year and 5 months since the split, dear.
Nunca he pensado que responderia mi texto anoche. No puedo decir como feliz soy yo
Translation ;
I have never thought that you would reply my text . I cant say How Happy I am when You did.
La razon por que texted en espanol era porque me dont quiere saber lo que exactamente im intentando decir, se que ha avanzado de cus. Quien soy yo para parar le?
Translation ;
The reason why i texted you in spanish was because i dont want you to know what exactly im trying to say, cus i know you've moved on. Who am i to stop you?
Feliz cumpleanos! Think su suficiente para decir, I Miss You.
Translations ;
anyway, Happy Birthday! I Think its enough to say, I Miss You.

Its been almost 6 months now that i have been learning spanish all by myself.
p.s; aku inda liat dictionary, haha and i dont have one! haha ;p
tearcher alvin and doctor marc said i just have to work on the pronounsiation nya saja.

Till now, Bye (:

How can I simmer my crazy emotions?

okay this is again another problem i have to face everytime, and its really bothering me at times. bah just read it, haha.
How can I stay more even-tempered at school, when I feel like my emotions are out of control! Or at least appear even-tempered and approachable! urghh!

I've always felt that I was good about being reasonable, assertive but not aggressive, pleasant, easy-going, etc, especially at at home and school (but mostly at school), (tapi pasal si iv selalu exagerate stuffs about us yatah cant simmer my emotions at most of the time, im sure the others tau pasal ani) but then, lately I feel like I magnify every small slight into something huge, that makes me snap at people and fume for days. I also feel like I'm going around with this general feeling that some people is against me (esp the girl who i have conflict with now) ( i know, i know. that's just probably what i am feeling)

I have a hard time just sounding pleasant and concerned, but instead accusatory & angry. I don't want people to start viewing me as a jerk or someone you have to walk on eggshells around. I also want to change my image from being a complacent slacker to being someone who is promotable (rather than someone who's too crazy & emotional to deal with people). - if you get what i mean.

How can I simmer my crazy emotions? I'm at the point where I feel like I am bitching about people too much (and their attitude, if it affects me), that I am incapable of having an adult discussion about my role without busting out into tears, and that being at a simmering boil all the time has made it so that people can literally see the steam rising from my ears! ( i just cant help this but yeah cant really control my emotions at times)

I'm like this at home too, but at least some people in this house has been understanding. I just really want to reign in my emotions so that I can think before I speak, not have a quavering or angry-sounding voice when I do speak, and try not to let people bother me.

Any suggestions? Tips? Books or resources?
help me, please? anyone?
thanks.

Fuhh.

Fuhh. Im tired. I just got back from gadong, i hanged out with zana, erma, yuni & fatma. we watched night at the museum 2, it was fun! but unfortunately, we went out before the story finished. we went out to accompany yuni & fatma, cus fat's mum sudah tunggu. After both of them left, ikhwan & taufeeq came. But only then that he told us that sharif came along with mirul. Zana called erma and told her that she cant come back to the mall - which means she had to go home tarus. hehe So, we went down and wait for si awang sharif - ia pulang ditunggu, haha ;p Just in a few minutes, sharif approached us with someone, i was like wann! siapa kan tu?! ikhwan said - abang ku tu fee. And i was like, cute jua? haha ;p Mum messaged me saying that she is already downstairs - but she's not exactly there to wait for me but infact, she was looking for apakah? - i dont really remember. haha We went up again, (taufeeq and ikhwan mau cari something) so, us - me, er & sharif came along. We talk and talk, in the middle of the conversation atu i stopped, cus i saw someone who is so cuteee & guess what kwn taufeeq and ikhwan and also sharif! To be Honest, they dont like they are bruneians - that made me asked ikhwan, eh bukan urg putih kah? he said - no! melayu lah. haha That Shocked me up to the sky. Ohh before that, before we went to the cinema, we saw Rtb crews & i was wondering what exactly are they doing, so are the others. haha Then suddenly, Er grabbed me and i was like ah? eh eh princess zmah jua tu. thank god Er pulled me away from blocking their way. - imagine, i was in the middle of the way. I think that's all for now, ill update later. bye! (:

oh yea, i took some pictures of us at fat's house.
pictures - Phone qualities/ edited.
HAHA. we did not take lot of pictures like we usually did, maybe pasal camerawoman nya off today ;p pasal takut image beyonce nya hilang ;p haha AND OMG! i forgot to tell you that, we just finished our commerce exam! and guess who was incharge? Teacher michael! - we dislike him, kuat starring! - makes us feel uncomfortable somethimes- well, should i say, Most of the time? HAHA.

okay, enough said. Bye (:

This is bad.

I can’t ever seem to talk about my emotions or what is on my mind.

Erasing emotion is impossible because it is in our genetic makeup. Reducing the impact of emotion is learned, once understanding of the cause of emotion is understood. Example, anger. The only good purpose anger helps you is by making you determined to complete or succeed in an endeavor. Anger is wasted on hating others who do not respond or you not knowing that it doesn't. It's wasted on yourself, therefore why be angry. Another is envy. One shouldn't be envious of the things others have as you never had it to begin with nor needed it before then. It's a study with satisfactory returns if you put effort into it. - i need help regarding this matter.

any suggestions?
thanks.

its us!

i was browsing my pictures in my laptop and found the old pictures of us (well, its not exactly that old) its taken a month ago - to be exact, haha.

Here's the pictures & Let the pictures tell you the story. haha



okay i agree with you guys '' mcm amah rupanya ah usulku dalam ani '' HAHA.

Here's a picture of yuni and me , can we consider this as friend's abuse? haha jokes. & i looked so scary there haha.

i cant really recall what exactly i was doing that time, but i think i was text messaging or chatting? maybe? haha.

i think that's all for now, ill try to update more and more pictures.
okay, until next time.

pictures- phone qualities and not edited.

Later.

I am a very forgetful person. How am i gonna deal with it?

i searched on google on how to banish forgetfullness and there are tips that are very easy to use and they're also common sense! HAHA. so, i think this might be very helpful to me, and to anyone who has the same problem. haha

This is what i've experienced and yet, STILL. haha

Lose your train of thought. This one is embarrassing. You are in the middle of explaining something and you get interrupted briefly. Then you can't remember what you were talking about! The best strategy for me has been to be honest with the other person and make light about my forgetfulness in that situation. Usually if you don't freak out, the other person won't give you a hard time. They will usually just remind you about what you were saying. (After all, they've probably been there, too.) - This is want i find very hard to deal with infact, this is what i always have problem with = s

Can't remember that someone told you something. This is probably a concentration issue, pure and simple. You simply may not be paying attention when other people talk! (I have been accused of this, many times.) First of all, awareness is a trait you can build if you are motivated enough. Simply decide to listen carefully when people talk. Second, try repeating back to the person what they said. Don't use the exact same words, though, or you'll sound like a parrot. Instead, to show you really have heard them, say back a summary of what they said, in different words than they used. And third, work on your concentration abilities. Try playing some of the brain games on this site to build your concentration and focus

This is ver interesting- General Strategies

And here are some general approaches to dealing with forgetfulness. In general, be philosophic about your forgetfulness. If you are like an absent-minded professor, just remember that a professor is smart, even if he or she is forgetful! Forgetfulness is simply something about yourself that you need to manage.
Be patient. You can choose to get frustrated with your forgetfulness, or you can choose to accept and deal with it. (Why be intentionally miserable?)
Improve your memory directly. Of course, this entire website is about memory improvement, so check out the pages about increasing concentration through playing brain games, improving your diet with brain foods and other changes, getting enough good sleep, use the memory techniques, and so on!
Use a wristwatch, cell phone, or electronic organizer to set alarms. If you need to take medicine every four hours, for example, setting an electric alarm of some sort can be very important. I use my wristwatch for my morning alarm clock.

I think i need to really follow this strategies. Who knows this might help me a bit on how to banish my forgetfulness. haha. And thus, this seems to be very helpful and at the same time very very useful to me, wish me luck ;p haha.

How do we say goodbye?

Dearest.

I sent you an email, but i dont think you might read it. i called you twice and you rejected. i know you might not read this, but i'll just post it here anyway.

ive been wondering, where have you been. i've been wondering how you cope with these problems and just walk away?

now its time for me to ask.

How do you lose yourself to someone and never lose your way? How do you not run out of new things to say?

And since you know we're always changing , how can it be the same? And tell me how year after year , You're sure your heart will fall apart each time you hear her name?

I know the way i feel for you, it's now or never.
The more i love, the more i am afraid.

So, If we can be the best of lovers, yet the best of friends.

what are the words they use when when they know its over?
''we need to talk,'' or '' i'm confused, or '' we still can fix this ''
blah. again it seems that we can't fix this problem lagi.
im writing it down now cus this is how i feel.

and and, why do we trade fine lines for a real truth we dont wanna know?
would you dare fall flat on your face,
Get your answer approved by the state,
by the state of friends that you knew.
A friends that went through, and now they're leaving you too?
Guess what? i'll follow their leads, im the next one to leave you.

its over any minute now.
Bye.

Ok I'm back to blogging.

Holla people. im back again from the short break and here i am with this new blog. haha im bored guys. talk to me ;D oh yeah, tomorrow will be our last exam and we're planning to hang out tommorow ;D okay, im speechless. haha i'll update again later, fo sho. Talk to you soon.


effie jafar.